Weekend

This weekend was kind of eventful. I slept alot but still found the time to squeeze in a date. When out to date with someone that like me. I don't know how I feel about him. I'm tired of liking someone and then have it not work out. This is a guy that I've know for some time. He is good looking but I never took him seriously before, not sure if I do now. Having depression and anxiety and trying to meet the right man to have a meaningfuly relationship with is very difficult. I've meet alot of great guys but it never works out. I've been married and he was the reason why I filed for divorce but I now realize that I did play a part in the break up. I'm over him now, and wish him the best. Out of the blue this week, he texted to see how things are going? I didn't respond because I don't want any form of interaction with him, I thought that he knew that.

Lately I through alot about having a baby. Before I never tried because I wanted to be married and did not want to be a single parent. Now I wonder if I'll ever meet Mr. Right? Maybe I should try before all of my eggs dry up. I went out to dinner last week and two of my friends have been trying for over a year and have been taking medication and they are still not pregnant. I love children and have always wanted to be a mother but at the same time, is it selfish to do it on my own? I dont' want my child go miss out on a father.

I also worry about if I could handle it with anxiety and depression. Plus I also have migraine headaches. Could I make it for nine months with no medication? Lord, it's alot to think about.